In the beginning

To say that I will understand is lost.  To say that I’ve tried, is immense.  To say that I’ve done the greatest I could, is true.  To say that I lost, is the truest of all.  I’ve loved having a family.  My precious son, Sam, as my first born child, was a central focus of my understanding of family, along with his most lovable brother, Nick.  I will never forget the family I formed with Sam and Nick; I’m reminded in ways that are transforming today.  I will always be Sam and Nick’s mom and I would want for nothing else in this world.  I’ll die that way.  In between, there will be bittersweetness.  I will pray to embrace and love it all; just like I did in the beginning because I’ve been blessed.  #muchlovetosamandnick